After May 2002

You know what I’ve done since I graduated college in 2002, film school in 2002, nothing, I sit online and I don’t even have the internet, I bought a lap top computer and I move that around to get a very weak internet signal where it takes two hours to log into something write a message and log out and hopefully not accidently send 4 of the same message cause like an idiot hitting the elevator I hit the send button 4 times…trying to get it to work… and im not above waiting 3 hours to upload a youtube video… while I sit there attentively monitoring it, making sure the computer doesn’t go to sleep and I gotta find something else to do in that time and by ‘find something else to do’ I don’t have a television, so it’s either read, masturbate, or think about suicide, but somehow I usually manage to do none of the three, I sit there and stare out window and I honestly couldn’t tell you what I was thinking about, because I’m probably not even thinking, I stare at a building and let my eyes sorta blur… that’s what I do, that’s what I’ve done since I graduated film school in 2002, I gaze out the window and let my eyes blur as I vaguely look at a building… the general direction of the building… not thinking anything, just sorta worrying…